In the boring recap of what I’ve done over the last week and a half or so, I’ve gone to church on Easter Sunday with David, went on a TNTT Leaders training camp, done a whole bunch of things to get the inaugral edition of the Revue newsletter off the ground and got another job.
Easter Sunday was particularly difficult. I thought the service was good. Really really good… if I only believed the axiom of it, which is “The bible is completely true”. Sometimes I wonder what I would be like if I was in this kind of thing at the age of 15, when faith mattered to me. TNTT was there for me when I was 15, and made me the woman I am today. And though through various experiences as time went on, I’ve lost belief in God, the what if makes me wonder.
I guess alot of things make me wonder. Sometimes I wonder whether or not if I hadn’t lost faith I would be dating David today. We had a very long talk after the Easter service and for a while I though David didn’t want to be friends with me anymore. But it was more David coming to terms that I won’t be with him in the next life as on that night we showed our true colours. More correctly, that he showed how deep a believer he was and that he couldn’t countenance being with someone who didn’t believe as he did, and I being totally unmoved but the service. I didn’t get on with his church friends very well. Alot of that because I was being reserved in a crazy way. Plus also their personalities weren’t the engaging types that I usually click with. David was dissappointed by this observation. I think it’s because I’m so much a part of his life, he’d like to integrate me with the rest of it whenever possible (especially in the process of converting me!).
I found it very strange that his friends were such big believers. I mean, i shouldn’t, knowing David – just I guess I’m not exposed to many people who have such strong faith. The faith of the teachers at TNTT is sometimes tenuous and controversial at times. I’m more familiar with it.
So I spent last weekend at TNTT Leaders training camp. Sometimes I am dissappointed that my role in the state admin board isn’t larger. I’m very willing to do work, just people don’t ask because I”m not exactly the most approachable person as I get very stubborn and agressive on some points. I guess I like to feel needed. I didn’t have much fun. I spent alot of the time in the kitchen. I love being a kitchen hand. Tiring, but it was good to do housework. I have no mind nor talent for games.
Sometimes I’m envious about how great Christina is. Everyone loves her. She’s uber nice and fantastically talented and gorgeous to boot. She’s such an inspiring person. But I know that my talents lie in different directions to her and I know that I enjoy utilising the talents that I have.
I signed my life away on a contract to work at Chubb Insurance 2 days a week. I apparently start next week on Wednesday. It’s like OMG OMG OMG OMG. They send me a letter dated the 21st which I didn’t receive till the 26th (but they sent me soft copy of in my inbox on the 23rd) to sign and return by the 28th to start work on the 3rd. OMG, it took them 9 months before they offer me a job and then it’s like zoom.
After talking to Doris (I finally managed to meet up with her for lunch YAY!) she’s convinced me that I should quit a job. I love my little baby Sam and I do want to quit working where I am working now as a actuarial junior. I’d be only coming in one day a week, but I am tired of having so little time for the rest of my life. I guess also even though I have ignored it for a long time and it’s noticeably decreased, I don’t like being hit on. Also, I earn more babysitting Sam. But we are moving premises, I’ll wait till after we’ve settled down to leave.
Newsletter is moving along on a rather tight deadline. Hopefully Drew, the poor guy that I made do the layout will be a miracle worker. Jen says I’m a very good Overlord. I said “Shame I don’t float like the ones in Starcraft”. I find it very sad that I’m so geeky for the first thing to hit my mind being a RTS game. I’m such a nag in team newsletter. I get alot of people moving. Sometimes I worry about being too pushy. But Ali, who is team head doesn’t mind.
I’ve also been working on the Revue gallery. I am proud of my efforts.
In random news, I now have a new Samsung Z510 courtesy of my parents on a Telstra plan. We now get $15 off calling each other too. I know how much it’s costing me to call my parents =S.
Oh, and I’ve been reading Asimov’s Foundation series. It’s awesome. Orson Scott Card is fantastic as well though I must admit I was a bit wary after reading “Speaker for the Dead”. “Speaker for the Dead” was well written, I guess it just didn’t strike me as well as “Ender’s Game” did. However, I am keen to read more of Asimov’s books.
Talking to Frank, the owner of the 2nd hand bookstore where I bought the Asimov books he was saying that Asimov is a really old writer, and the Foundation books were published in the 50′s! He said they don’t write Sci Fi novels like they used to. My theory is that people nowadays are too impressed by actions and by super duper technology that they lose heart in the writing. Whereas the older writers like Herbert and Asimov are focused on the psychology of people and merely manipulate the environments to have a belieable affect on the characters. For example, Herbert’s Dune series has a strong message about the human psychology and character and how it can be pushed. Asimov’s Foundation series (from what I gather so far) is about socio-economic forces. Though not Sci-Fi, The Narnia series has a very strong Christian message. I think what sets these guys apart is because of it’s strong messages as well as good writing and imagery. Good writing and imagery is not good at all if there is not story.
I have also spent lots of money Op Shopping. Go retro/vintage clothing. I’ve made some purchases which is not really my usual style but I’m eager to try out. I got told by Som today that pink suits me and that I should keep wearing it. It was really nice to hear him say that. I’m still on pink strike still. I’m going to stick it out till Revue camp. Maybe by then I’ll be bright and ‘illogically’ happy.
I’m quite happy as is though at the moment. I have my books and clothes and various work committments as well as fantastic friends. I just now need to find time to study and focus.
Anyway, that’s my recap of the week.